i'm still learning
to appreciate the little things that really do make up the "bigger" things
i'm still learning
to not take every word and action to heart.
i'm still learning
to be thankful in everything
i'm still learning
the ways.
yet once in a while
i still need the assurance
to certain things
that i do not see.
at this rate, I will soon be overwhelmed with the nonexistent. the incessant complaining and worst, i can't even fathom what triggers the emotion within me at the mentioning of you. seriously, i don't hate you. in fact, you're still one of those friends who can always put a smile on my face. but my disappointment is up to the point of me not knowing if i have closed the door or if it's really true that you've been too preoccupied with your new life.
i felt as if those days are so far behind us and that i'm just one of the passerby who came along in your life.
i realize that i have to turn my back on the stubborness because what i think may all be plainly nonexistent.
i wish i wasn't like this.
i wish that your occassional way of showing your care [your asking of how i was and everything] answers my sorrow.
yet the cliche is that things
are easier said than done.
can i place all my hope in You, Lord?
because it can be difficult
at times.
Philippians 4:13
